Saturday, January 26, 2013

More How I Met Your Mother Wisdom

 This quote is from the Three Days Rule Episode. Honestly that whole episode could be a blog topic. For now I will stick with this beautiful quote from the most unexpected of places....

"just knowing he's out there thinking about you, caring about you, makes you feel safe. So all your fears, all your yesterdays, wash away. And only hope remains in the promise of his embrace."

"You make me thank God for every mistake I ever made, because each one led me down the path that brought me to you."

"And when we finally come together, I want you to hold me. Hold me all night. Stroke my hair. Tell me I'm a woman, and show me you a man. Until there is only now. You, and I, and now."

"I do not ask of the night explanations, I wait for it, and it envelopes me, and so you, and bread, and light, and shadow, are. - That's Pablo Neruda."

This LEGEN ( wait for it) DARY quote helped me realize that all of the horrible relationships and even the not so horrible ones had to happen so that  I can meet the future father of my children. Just like how everything in How I Met Your Mother is intricately linked causing a chain of events like falling dominoes the same is true in real life. We are just too close to the situation to see how all the mistakes are leading us to that one person. But maybe if we are lucky we will be telling our kids a long ass story about how we met their father/mother.

"I’ll be back when the wind and fate and chance bring me back…which will be tomorrow. It’s cheese steak day."

Sunday, January 13, 2013


I had a plan.

Five or so years ago I decided that I was gonna leave the amazingly small insignificant town I was born in and go off to a big school in a big city far away where no one knew me. I was going to be popular and have a lot of friends. Friendships that would last a lifetime.

I was going to find a major that interested me and I was going to get an amazing job outside of college that all the friends people I knew from my hometown would be jealous of.

Most importantly I was going to meet the man I was going to marry while in college.


I actually had numerous tragedies during my college years. Definitely not the best times of my life ( I hope).

As a  result of going to an university out of state with no scholarships, I am buried to my teeth in debt. I pay more for loans each month than I do for rent.

I made few friends. Lost most of the ones I did make. Regretted losing those friendships.

I got a job that barely required a high school diploma. I have since been promoted but its still just a job and not a career. And I still have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

I am extremely single. Though I have some hope in that department I don't want to count my chickens before they hatch in that department. Especially since all weekend for some reason subconsciously I have been trying to push him away.

Despite all of these things I love my life. I am extremely blessed and happy.

Alone and happy.

While this may not have been my plan, I have to trust that this is god's plan. And somewhere out there are the friends, the career, and the man he has planned for me.

I just feel like there has to be more than this provincial life.  ( shameless Disney Reference)

I want the life I read in books. Where is my Christian freaking Grey.

I'm an Aries so patience isn't really in my repertoire. Waiting for all this to happen feels unbearable. But I am enjoying this journey. So for now I just plan to enjoy life, figure out what the hell I want and just freaking go for it.

(Well one thing (or person) I want requires patience or I will ruin 99.9% sure).

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

New Year New You?

It's that time of the year again. The first of the year. The beginning of the next adventure in your life. Every year we make resolutions to improve and better our lives. How many of us actually resolve these goals by Dec 31st? I am definitely guilty of falling short of achieving resolutions in my life. Does that mean the previous year was a failure? No! Just meant that I lost sight of what I wanted or that I put off till tomorrow what should have been done yesterday! So in the spirit of if at first you don't succeed......Here are my New Years Resolutions for 2013!

1. Become more spiritual:

This a broad resolution but I have implemeted a plan to help me achieve this already. I will read a bible verse daily. I feel ashamed to be more knowledgeable about secular matters than I am about biblical matters. It's Day 8 in the year and I am proud to say I am 8 for 8.

2. Become healthier

Again a broad resolutions. To achieve this one I will eat better, workout more, and drink less.

3. Become more professional

I am blessed to have a great job. I need to improve my professionalism to get an even better job. This will be done through reading relavent material and research.

Nobody is perfect so I am certain I will stumble and maybe even fall on my quest for improvement. But as long as I get myself back up again it can be considered a success!

Who Am I

The title of my introductory post for my new blog is "Who Am I".

Well I am someone who thinks anyone who knows the answer to that question is full of BS ( haven't decided if I will use profanity in this blog yet). I have begun to realize that truly knowing yourself is a life long journey. Every day some new unique aspect of our persona is revealed to us.

So join me for this exploration of me.

I will be blogging about life, love, food, sex, and honestly anything else my ADD (not offically diagnosed) mind comes across. I invite you to comment and discuss these topics with me.