Introducing a Lil Chaos

So yesterday I had a plan. That plan was to deviate from my normal PLAN or style of blogging and start a new (well old) way of blogging.

BUT

I told no one of this plan mainly cuz I was just blogging from pure emotion and it just flowed it just came. Well I should have listened better to the Heath Ledger as the Joker in The Dark Knight when he said the following quote.

You know… You know what I’ve noticed? Nobody panics when things go “according to plan.” Even if the plan is horrifying! If, tomorrow, I tell the press that, like, a gang banger will get shot, or a truckload of soldiers will be blown up, nobody panics, because it’s all “part of the plan.” But when I say that one little old mayor will die, well then everyone loses their minds!

Introduce a little anarchy. Upset the established order, and everything becomes chaos. I’m an agent of chaos. Oh, and you know the thing about chaos? It’s fair!

So when I was blogging my happy go lucky blog that felt shallow to me nobody panicked. Because it was part of the plan they knew about. But when I said I was going to start venting and said somethings that were not part of the plan then chaos was introduced. Suddenly my blogging is unacceptable and a problem. Specifically my posting the blog on social media. Despite the fact that I pretty much have posted EVERY SINGLE POST on multiple social media outlets. I write so other people can read it to. Part of it is my EGO but mainly I'm searching for understanding. Maybe there is someone out there who understands how I feel or even feels the same. As a human we want to feel validated...I am no different.

BUT

I can understand how and why the blogs can be upsetting. Nobody wants to be seen in a negative light to the public...well except maybe Chris Brown and he has nothing to do with this blog. So I guess I just won't blog anymore. Blogging without sharing feels like writing a diary and I don't want to do that. I want to share experiences both good AND bad.  But they aren't just my experiences to share and I guess its only right that I respect that when there are other people involved. But still it feels like I'm getting the short end of this particular stick.